The Truth

"When smart guy realizes he cant win, he start to think of ways to lose well. A stupid person is too attached to the idea of winning and wont ever consider losing. But an idiot doesnt thing about winning or losing to begin with."

To be honest, I'm always become a smart guy. In every aspect of my life. Work, study, friendship, relationship and love to be mention. Once I see a chance of "losing" in every aspect mentioned before, I start to figure out how I could turn it from losing to winning or at least to make the glorious losing. Hell yeah I am that pathetic.

Today, after read that line of manga, I began to think that maybe I'm too much attached with idea of smart guy. Just based on quick calculations plus unstable emotion, I'm began to wander how things dont work for me. On the most recent cases is my love life. Yes, hunnie, I start to thing about winning the ego trophy of you because I see a chance of losing you as my spouse. So, instead of fixing our relationship, I choose to lose well by winning the battle of anger.

I suck with work, and study. I screw them. But I wont give up with you. I may still smart guy for real, but as they said, love is blind and this blindness turn me into an idiot. I'll fight our love even I cant see any chance of winning or losing because you are too precious to be calculated or to be logical. When I flashback, I used to have this blind when I chase you. Not to win or to lose. Just to see those kind smile of yours, those energetic move, and attractive personality. Because from the start, to be honest, I'm just see you as a part of life that I need to chase in every breathe.

I love u..